Sometimes we all just want to live a normal life, grown old and pass the 'baton' on to the next generation to continue the race. But we all have to face obstacles along the way. Problems and complications that just don't seem to go away. What makes matters worse is that these problems can stack causing something we all term as STRESS.

That's what my life is about. Filled with nutritiously wholesome STRESS. I'm not saying all stress is good but take a second look at that sentence and try to get my point . Maybe pouring my heart and soul onto an online journal is my only way to destress. So please take pity on a kind soul like me and don't flame me for anything i say that might offend you physically,mentally or emotionally. You might be a retart but i'm not so if you had the intention of doing some flaming you picked the wrong place to do so.

So just read and shut that trap of yours if nothing good comes out of it.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Chris Daughtry-Over You

I'm going through a rough patch now. I'm having a major problem that i have to solve and moreover i have NetFund supp paper to sit for next week. To top it all off i have a super bad headache. Thankfully most of it is gone now.

In any case. I might be moving soon. There are too many memories here that i seem to want to forget. Some painful and some hurtful. It'd be better to start anew. SHould any of my loyal reads wish to continue reading my life kindly leave a tag on the tagboard and i'll be glad to tell you my new blog address. Thats all for now. TIme to take a rest.

There comes a time where we reach a point of our lives where we tend to feel confused about a certain something or someone, often it would be a member of the opposite gender.A case of mixed feelings as some of us woudl describe it.But after a short period of time the fog would clear up and we would once again see sunny skies overhead.

 Seriously i don't know what is up with girls. Some tend to be utmost petty and will retaliate at the slightest hint of criticism. Others will bear a grudge and will hold it until they are presented with a diamond ring or any expensive object in front of them, only then will the poor guy be forgiven. The things that guys must do to win over a girl is simply absurd.

I'm about to come to a junction in my life which entitles me to a decsion. A decision to carry on or a decsion to let go. Either of which would benefit or harm my emotional being in a certain way. I should think carefully about the pros and cons before making a decision. But before i make that decision i just want to treasure every single moment of what i have now before that decision is made. I hope i make the right one because i don't want to be the one who walks away with nothing but emotional scars.

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER. WOOT. i for one couldnt be happier. It's time to kick back,relax,and let the good times roll. Hopefully i could pass all my papers. Then it would be the best holiday for me ever.

But there's something that i can't stop worrying about. I wonder if it'll ever come. And if it doesn't, how am i supposed to explain it to everyone? I can't think of the consequences. >.< Sometimes i can't even sleep at night. PLEASE PLEASE COME. I promise i wont ever do the same mistake ever again. T________T

Lets wait and see.

i've known you for already close to two years now. Or has i been 3? i'm not too sure myself. As time went by we grew closer, from strangers to the closest of friends till i could even share my deepest darkest secrets with you. We could talk for hours on end without running out of a topic to talk on. I slowly grew to like you and wouldn't want to think what would life be like without you. There were times that i felt annoyed and irritated by certain actions of yours, but i let it pass.

But, that was all in the past.

Now, we're back to being what we were again;strangers. We seldom talk to each other and hardly even meet up. What happened to all those joyful occasions which we used to spend together laughing nonsensically at things that didn't even make the least bit of sense? Where did all those good times go? It all seemed to fade away after what seemed like a short period that we spent together being the best of friends. I wish we could go back to what we were before. I hope that there will be one day when it could just be the both of us again with no orries on our minds and the sounds of our laughter echoing through the corridors of the outside world.

This entire entry was meant for TWO people. care to guess who?

Happy Valentines Day to all.  Haven't been blogging for some time but i really can't seem to find the time to do so. Not with all the projects that i have piling one by one. Thankfully due to the upcoming main examinations the project deadlines arrived and now i feel so much lighter.

Spent the day watching a movie with dear to celebrate valentines day. Not much of a celebration if you asked me. In any case, moving on, i decided to come up with a list of stuff that i need/want  that my life would/could be much better with.

MY LIST OF NEEDS/WANTS:

1)A new pair of headphones(the last pair i bought was totally the wrong type -.-)

2)A new CPU(goddammit this one's already ancient)

3)A new mouse(Spoiling soon)

4)A new keyboard(can't stand my current one as i lost the little flip out
thingy to make it more comfortable to use)

5)New clothes!!(this i want. Passed by This Fashion with dear this afternoon and the clothes there are to die for =x)

6)New Shoes(My current ones are almost on the verge of tearing =x)

7)New Speakers(one side spoilt)

8)A new hairstyle(LOL =x)

Well that about sums it up. I'm getting tired from all the walking i did today so i think i shall call it a day. Toodles.

Last weekend was a shitfest. Stayed over at Asep's house with Joel and we played like crazy. resulted in a cold and a sore arm. Not too bad. Wish it could have been longer though.

This week's not going to be any better. Even though all the deadlines are approaching i can still feel the amount of pressure going on. Just gotta love those projects. They cause the most stress, comparable to exam stress. Yet i can peacefully sit here enjoing myself instead of frantically typing away at my laptop or computer. Either way i think i'm screwed for this semester.

Think i've cleared my maths and my OOP for this semester. Passed the quiz i had last week by barely an inch and i'm thankful for that because thanks to my wonderful 82½ that i scored for the term tests, my marks should have been pulled up to at least a pass. I have my fingers crossed.

Damn i gotta get going with my projects. Unless i wanna quit poly and live the live of an outcast. SO many people just want me to get out of their hair because of all the trouble ive caused them and the conributions i have NOT made. Well i'm not going to fufill that wish of theirs. Frankly speaking i think i bucked up alot this semester. Maybe it's because i quitted maple so i ave like plently of time to spare and i'm sleeping earlier(i think). Well times up and i gotta hit my projects. Chao for now.

A month more to heaven.
I can't wait.